First and foremost, at times I cannot be the easiest person to deal with.
It is no fault of others, it is my own.
The issue lies in the fact that I couldn’t find a median in my personality. Some people will tell you that I am brash, arrogant, pushy, forward, and at times outright stalkerish. Yeah, that’s right I said that. Other people will tell you that I am cool, fun loving, quiet, reserved, and shy.
Shocking, isn’t it.
But in the long run, I am both sides of that. My personality goes both ways. I try to control the extreme side of my personality so that I don’t offend anyone.
Some people say that I shouldn’t care what others think of me. But I do. I hate having to goto cons and not saying hi to someone I know because I said something the wrong way and offending them.
The second most important thing to me besides family is friends. I love my friends, I cherish them. When I goto cons and meet people I love that. If within a few minutes of talking to that person, I will sense their vibes. If there good, I will add them to my private Facebook account. I always worry because I have a mouth on me and I will offend and not know it until it’s too late.
I’ve also had problems of fitting in within the various circles I associate with. It’s because of the different subjects that are discussed and I don’t have a clue as to what’s going on. So I just wait until something piques my interests and then I add my two cents.
At first all of this got to me… Then I got used to it. I take with each experience what I learned and focus it for the better.
So if I run into you at a con and I seem to be nervous/flirty, I’m just trying to find my middle.